Friday, January 8, 2010

The Past Makes A Comeback

I never thought I'll be crossing paths with a thing that I have buried and completely forgotten for a couple of years.

What should one really do when a past makes a comeback?

This morning I woke up to two new text messages on my phone. I was all okay for the first one knowing it was just from a friend; if not only for the second one--a job interview from a company where I once applied for--two years back.

Seeing the text message and email left me dumbfounded and kinda disorganized. I know I am still enjoying the job of writing for MMLDC and for Highlights, the other day, my managing editor and I were discussing about a new opportunity in the marketing communications aspect that I might handle.

On the other hand, I have been wanting something feasible too. At 25, it scares the hell out of me when I think of having a career, knowing that in the place like ours, getting a career in your mid-20's is an indefinite (if not hard) thing. Like what I often say, I'm really wanting something that's full-time; with regular benefits and the stuff that I need. It's not a joke to grow by age year by year, just paying taxes; with a social security number that does not have anything at all. As I write these down, in a way these two things dawned on me...

-that there was a reason why despite of years of keeping the whole stuff, I still cannot trash that old, dusty envelope containing my documents--including the application for an Australian visa;

-that more than just wanting to go to Disneyland by the end of the year, there was a reason why I seem to badly want to possess a Philippine passport.

A lot of things had gotten over me in the first attempt on this prospect;and all those were telling me the time isn't right--yet. I was then going through a trial separation with a then boyfriend (now a long-forgotten Ex), I was performing two jobs at the same time and juggling my time over the job, the requirements to avail of the supposed training having to finish the process just before the Australian Embassy closes for the Yuletide holidays; and being a neophyte, I had a lot of unsettled doubts over the whole thing.

At one point right now, I am also thinking that this could be a heaven-sent opportunity. After all, like actor Harrison Ford puts it, "We all have big changes in our lives that are more or less a second chance." Probably, this is the second chance that I am being given to change my life.

I am going to discern about the whole thing further and hopefully, this time, I can make a better, clearer and wiser decision; and probably this time, I'll seriously consider going to the Land Down Under if ever they'll offer.

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